okay I admit it I suffer from depression and yes it really hurts. Feeling stuck, unmotivated, lacking interests in things and having a constant state of sadness and agitation consume me nearly everyday of my life. It's not easy to talk about it with people because a fear of them blaming you for something you inherited from your parents. They say going to the gym is the perfect medicine for depression because your body releases quote on quote "feel good chemicals" called Endorphins which also acts as a sedative. While that is all and good it's not enough and medication is needed to further assist the mind. I'm gonna stop for now. Good night hopefully I can sleep and this large weight of guilt will be lifted off me but I doubt it.