pointless

What’s the point of committing yourself to anything? You’re just going to fall flat on your face. In this world I am alone with no friends, no job, lack of confidence and no support from anybody. Everyone is doing so well that they don’t have time for someone like me because I am sad, weird, and hopeless. If you don’t believe me ask those who use to know me. They will tell you “I can care less about that short, fat, balding loser who has not done anything with this life”. Given how things have been going for the past six months I am surprised I haven’t offed myself yet. “People don’t have time to console an unhappy, unmotivated, depressed soul who has nothing to offer in life. It would be beneficial for that loser to just die so we won’t have to hear about how pathetic his life is. Why hasn’t anybody pushed him to do it yet? He is really cramping everyone’s style? I don’t care how he does it! Jump in front of a train, run out in front of traffic, hang yourself, cut your wrist/throat. Whatever do something and shut the fuck up” One thing people don’t understand is that some of us are not cut out for life. We didn’t ask to be born and neither did I. If I was, I would have a purpose in life and have something to shoot for. Unfortunately I do not and therefore I am an accident who is being punished with spending a lifetime on earth. When people tell you they don’t have time for you it is because they have better things to do. Making their life better, finding happiness, finding and achieving their purpose etc. At age seven I developed a disease where I am unable to socialize with anyone. This has destroyed my life but I shouldn’t be too upset because those without a purpose were not meant to live. To be in the presence of my company is rather difficult and some would say nauseating as I struggle to fit in and come off as an idiot. For years people have suffered due to my existence and have been scarred for life because of me. If I was a decent human being I would have apologized to all of them. They deserve better!!!! .